Perception is truth and truth is reality. Good and evil are all in perception same with right and wrong. I was approached by a man a few days ago after getting off work. I was singing "Hotel California" by the Eagles. He asked me if i knew what it was about. I answered in a single word, "hell". I think he was taken aback by my quick and decisive response but i was right and he knew it. he then asked which religious affiliation i was a part of. I told him none. I don't believe in religion. they all spout the same crap, just verity there of. Don't get me wrong, I believe there is a divine power out there, and what ever it may be called it is not what people say, Religion is flawed because man is flawed. but is that true? if these people perceive that it's true is it? I believe 'god' and the path to haven must be found for one's self. no one can tell you how to find it, life isn't so simple. To each there own i often say. I was raised to not judge people by how they look, what religion they belong to or the sexual preferences. It sickens me to see people kill each other of such stupid things, but that's the way of the world. I wish money wasn't important but that's the way of the world. My life is at a crossroads at the moment as i decide my future. If perception is truth and truth is reality then what truth must i perceive to find my way?

Sorry for being philosophical, but i need to vent like this some times.

I got this from Mouse05k12. And I'm told by many, I'm a nice guy. I just hope its true. We still exist, most of my friends are nice guys(what do you expect, we're big on medieval and chivalry and knights and stuff like that and so are our parents, LMAO) so here goes.

♥To every guy that said, "Sex CAN wait"

♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"

♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her

♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.

♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls

♥To every guy that said he would die for her.

♥To every guy that really would.

♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for

♥To every guy that cried in front of her...

♥To every guy that she cried in front of...

♥To every guy that holds hands with her.

♥To every guy that kisses her with meaning..

♥To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

♥To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

♥To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

♥To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes

♥To every guy that would give his seat up...

♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

♥To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

♥To every guy who told his secrets to her.

♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.

♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

♥To every guy that believed in her dreams.

♥To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them

♥To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

♥To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door

♥To every guy that gave his heart.

♥To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Got this from [link] journal.

Put an X in the things that apply to you.

.:FIRE:.

[ ] You have a short temper.
[x] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[x] You are very competitive.
[x] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[x] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[x] You often lose control over yourself.
[x] You can be quite reckless.
[x] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[x] People have often called you insane.
Total: 8

.:WATER:.

[ ] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[x ] You rarely get angry.
[ ] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[x] You think before you act.
[x] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[] You like the rain.
[ ] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[x] You are very generous.
Total: 6

.:EARTH:.

[] You are physically strong.
[x] You have a close connection with nature.
[x] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[x] You could easily survive in the wild.
[x] You care about the environment.
[ ] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[x ] You aren't afraid of anything.
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 6

.:AIR:.

[ x] You have a free spirit.
[x] You hate rules.
[x] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[ ] You are very independent and outgoing.
[x] You are quite intelligent.
[x] You tend to be impatient.
[x] You are easily distracted.
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[ ] You wish you could fly.
Total: 8

.: DARKNESS:.

[x] You spend most of your time alone.
[] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[ ] You like creepy things.
[ ] You like to play tricks on people.
[] Black is your favorite color. (or one of them)
[ ] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[x] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are atheist.
[x ] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[ ] You love to break the rules.
Total: 3

.:LIGHT:.

[x] You are very polite.
[x] You are spiritual.
[x] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them.
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[ ] You are afraid of the dark.
[x] You hate violence. (REAL violence, not game violence)
[ ] You hope for world peace.
[x ] You are generally a happy person.
[x] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules.
Total: 6


Humm, Fire and Air...complimenting elements. not surprised really.

:Edit: Well my tower is back. He needs more ram but i can't afford it right now. But yay, I can surf the web without mom yelling at me to get off her computer. :Edit:



Well, my computer(old decreped thing it is)died, it had been crashing and complaining for a while now. poor thing just died, not even a blue screen just blaaa! dead! luckaly i had a stapels cuopon for a free cheack up(yes free thank god) so he's sitting at stapels. i should be getting him back today but you never know. My shiny new laptop that i got for my 18th(ok it's not that new) b-day is fine except the power coard got caught in a vacume claner... so yeah thats a $55 replacement fee, not to mention thw shipping. I may have a job now(and i thank godi do) but all the money i earn gose strait to school. I'm lucky if i get ten bucks. so i'm now sitting on moms laptop. shes not happy about it though(dad uses it all the time and he has a nice computer downstares(which i can't touch)). so yeah. I wonder what school work i have to do this week and i wonder if I'll be doing it on on moms laptop.

that a side i don't think i'll be doing scropt frenzy this year(started the first of april) though i may try anyway. I have a new picture to put up but only my computers can use the scanner/copyer/printer we have.

till next time.

Well, as i sit here and let the realization that i am now 20 sink in, i find my self looking back on my life to see what path i truly want to take. While i love writing and telling stories, i am currently chasing the dream of all nerds that never grow up mentally and want to make fun and interesting video games.

While i realize there are many aspects of the career path i have chosen i still wonder if it's really what i want to do. While yes you most certainly can tell a story via game is it what i want to do. Don't get me wrong, I love drawing and working with the many Adobe programs(photo shop, flash etc.) I also wonder it i should try going more towards the scripting of the game. To be the story teller and not the character maker, if that makes any scene.

Ah well I'm going to see Watchman in about an hour.